Hate Being Alive

(sometimes)

(today's one of those days)

(*I just found this today. I apparently never published it, but I'm going to.  it's from early March, 2011.)

Something has to change in my life.  I don't know what it is, but it definitely needs to change.  I have been faced with so much adversity lately that I can't help but wonder what it is I'm doing wrong.  I did pray for humility... so maybe I'm just realizing it.  I need to change something.

I hate Christians and what sucks is, they can't help the way they are.  Sure, they could wake up and realize they're barking up a totally wrong tree with their beliefs and what they've been taught... but first they need the ability to wake up... and I wouldn't wish that on anyone.  I feel my life has become more complex since I've been trying to figure religion out.

I need help.  I'm failing.  My kitty ran away again and my child brought in all D's and F's... except in Music, where she earned an A.