might as well just post it... it doesn't matter anymore anyway
The Dumbest Thing in the Whole World
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No One Cares, You Lame Fucking Drama Queens
No One Cares, You Lame Fucking Drama Queens
I am fit to be tied. I feel totally abused and really, intentionally villainized by a master manipulator. His little puppets have no idea he's pulling the strings... and if they do... they have secretly, maybe subconsciously, agreed to go along with his puppet show. The thing is, I never did anything to elicit his wrath. I realized that I was his puppet too... I played my part and now the eyes are off of him and on me.
I'm so angry right now! The threat is that if things go poorly, our so-called friends would try soil my *good* name by spreading false accusations that I was the reason why things went sour. The one thing they're not telling you is that they never pointed out what I did wrong to me or give me a chance to plead my case... which I shouldn't have to do.
I am innocent. I maintain that truth. Being a girl is the worst possible thing when dealing with personalities such as the ones I am dealing with. They're all totally nuts! That's not to say that I'm not as well. I know I let my thoughts influence me too much... but what am I supposed to do when my accusers don't accuse me to my face, rather, they group up and discuss what they believe I have done, developing the story as they see fit, filling in my actions and dialogue completely without any regard for the actual truth or justice.
If things go poorly and I do get blamed for it, it won't amount to anything. Sure, my feelings might be hurt and I might spend a couple days staring at my computer screen wondering if there's anything I can do to change it... but if I am labeled by lies the so be it. It's better to be falsely accused than to actually have done something worth being accused of.
If things go poorly, rest assured, it's because my accusers can't handle the truth or investigating it. They are lazy cowards who can't take any responsibility for their actions. And just so I'm not accused of avoiding responsibility, I'd like it to be known that I attempted communication with my accusers and I even apologized for something I didn't feel I had done. I had apologized for possibly being insensitive or hurting someone's feelings... which was a kindness and completely unnecessary for someone who is innocent to do... saying it here pretty much removes the nobility of it... but I want you to know that I did it. They ignored me and chose to stay angry over an inaccurate perception.
Even if every single one of their supporters agreed that I carry all the blame, even though it would hurt my feelings, it would not matter at all. Even if my accusers were not some tiny, insignificant entity, even if they were bigger than our heroes or bigger than the president... it wouldn't matter. There are too many people in the world for it to matter. No one would really care. In the long run, not even their supporters would care miss sleep or shed a tear. It would just be another mental tabloid. I've had worse happen.
I'm blowing it by not being your cyber friend? YOU'RE blowing it up by being a condescending, false accusing, bossy-pants Dick.. and if you let people overseas, who are even less significant than you, influence your personal reality then you're even stupider than you've been acting the last few weeks. All of you.
